10:06 p.m. - 2021-06-06
My son graduated from high school the other day. He was lucky his class actually got a graduation instead of a drive by thing. I was actually a bit sad. I don't feel really that close to him anymore. He turned out to be such a good kid and has a wonderful girlfriend. I try to give him the best advice I can but really don't spend too much time with him. He works a lot, then runs around with his girlfriend or their group of friends. For his graduation present I gave him three books; The Bagathagita, The Prophet by Kahlil Gibran, and another book by my favorite Alan Watts. He was really happy about them..now I want to reread them all!
I'm starting a new shift at work which I have some mixed feelings about. We did the summer bid and from now on I'm done telling people what I want. Fucking dickhead Don did what he said he was going to do and bid on the Runabout shift I had, I feel he did this out of spite and he likes to throw his weight around work. Nobody likes him and we tried so hard to get him kicked out of being one of our Union reps! Anyway, I got my old route A again, which is just endless loops around Paso, but Bev got Route B so that will be fun working with her. We both talked about getting walkie talkies to chit chat with one another since we can't really do that on the company frequency. I told her I might try and pick up some over time either doing the pm route A shift, or a Saturday Runabout. She told me she's asked to also do the Route A pm shift or a 9 to make some extra money this summer. So I'm worried about it becoming awkward, like if we both want to do the same double and one of us is asked and not the other.
I was kinda sad because this new online chat meditation group just started and I was just barely beginning to feel comfortable talking with this group, now I'll have to miss it because of this new schedule. I'm still trying to figure out where I even fit with this group. They seem really clickish, and I'm new in this group. I'm really not a click person, at least I think I'm not but who knows, maybe I am at least at work. I've been really tight with other online groups but it's taken me months to get to that state with them in the past. I feel like I get too sensitive in groups and it's easy for me to take things personally.
I've been having some really intense dreams lately. I take this sleep supplement called Galantamine only on days where I can really sleep in. The directions say it's best to take one tablet toward the end of your sleep cycle..so for me that would be early morning where periods of REM are longer I guess. With me it intensifies my dreams and makes them more easy to remember. It's more easy for me to wake up in a dream when I take the supplement, and I even had one OBE.
Better hit the sack now..got a long day tomorrow with the new schedule and no naps..