12:47 p.m. - 2016-05-08
I got my reading list picked out on audio books to listen to while on my new boring rural mail route:
The psychology of trust in work and love..by David Desteno
The confidence game: What con artist reveal about the psychology of trust and why even the most rational of us are susceptible to deception..by Maria Konnikova
Lot's of journaling, and of course my therapist once or twice a week. I'm determined to get through this ahead!
Funny, just when you think your ahead of the game the universe throws something new at you!
I told a friend I'd been emailing, and texting with for about the same amount of time I had been with "J", that our friendship has become toxic and I no longer wish to continue it. We had a very intellectual relationship with our writing, but then all this emotional drama came up. She started criticizing me one day, then apologizing and making up the next. I could not stand the inconsistency of it anymore. It's too much for me to put up with now at a vulnerable time in my life. So I told her farewell and to go in peace, and she wished me well, but wants to write me a letter on what she learned out of our friendship. I sent her a wordless song instead. Music, most especially when there are no words can send a better message to the world when words fail to. You hear it with your soul, your heart with out the mind to analyze it, pick it all apart!
It's mothers day...better do something fun with my kids.